Kathy Shares her Struggles and Plans

Kathy's Before and After Photo

I find myself rather frustrated as I think about weight loss. Nearly eight years ago, I started my weight loss journey. It is exactly that, a journey. I have not perfected anything. I work everyday and once again, I feel my weight journey involves emotion. When things are beyond my control, I turn to food. Before I realized it, 5 pounds come back, then 10 and 20 then more. While I still have over 1/2 of my weight off, I need to get back into the game. Get my head in the right place.

In these last few years, life happened. Many joys and a few sorrows and some very stressful situations. That’s what we all face at some time or another. It is how we deal with them, is the true challenge.

I went back to some of my old habits. Those are familiar to me. As much as I hate to admit it, I got comfortable with it again. I quit walking, I started to eat anything that I wanted. The sugar addiction took hold and one cookie turned into maybe 10 by the end of the day. Once again, I would do the “start back on the program” and made it a few days and gradually starting eating poorly again. The old yo-yo thing. When you live that life for 25+ years, those habits come back quickly. Now, to wrangle it all back in.

I found when I tried to get some weight off again, I didn’t do it the right way. I was looking at calories, not paying attention to healthy, just numbers. As I used to say, calories don’t work for me. I need to eat healthy foods to get me on track. I would walk a day or two, get weighed and since I didn’t lose 15 pounds in 2 days, I would get frustrated. Obviously, you can’t lose that kind of weight and I am truly joking about it but that is what I wanted. Don’t we all. Wake up in the morning and the weight is gone. Here’s the situation…I didn’t gain the weight overnight, it will not come off overnight. I gained about 5 pounds a year. That wasn’t horrible if I would have stopped after a couple of years but 7 years later, I now have some weight to lose.

So, here I am, needing to get the pounds off and get healthy again. I went back to my original post and saw how motivated I was and how I went about losing the weight. It is time to get back to where I was.

First thing…start thinking positive. It is amazing to me how your mind can become so negative. My positive self talk went down the tubes. Now I was saying to myself , “I can’t do this. I look horrible, I feel horrible. I have trouble sleeping because I ate too much and too close to bed.” At this point, my clothes are too tight. Now it is time to pick myself up and realize that we all fall down. I am not staying down, it is time to pick myself up and get that positivity back into my head. There were two things that stuck in my mind nearly eight years ago. One…until you take your last breath on this earth, you can make a change and two…negativity breeds more negativity. From this point on, all the negativity has to go.

Second…it is time to start eating clean. I need to focus on eating more vegetables. I got away from that as well. I really didn’t eat a lot of processed foods or fried foods but I still need to be more accountable to everything that I eat. That includes cutting out sugar again. That is my addiction.

Third…I need to start moving again. Walking isn’t hard. It is a matter of just making yourself do it. Don’t start off with an all or nothing attitude. I don’t need to do the 4 miles in an hour like I used to do. Start off slower. I need to push myself but not to the point that I can’t move for days.

Fourth…Nothing is all or nothing. I do that with my exercising but I do it with everything. If I eat something, oh well, the day if blown. No it isn’t. That is life. We can’t be 100% all day, everyday. That is way to much pressure on myself. Small changes lead to big successes. I need to remember that.

Lindsay asked me to blog about my journey once again. It is time to get back to eating well and fueling my body, not feeding my addiction to food. Once a week, I will share some of my thoughts and feelings as well as some new recipes that I want to try. I invite you to join me with my journey and share some of your thoughts and your experiences. So many of us deal with food issues and I find it inspiring when people share their journey as well.

Have a positive and healthy week!

Kathy is a contributing writer at Lindsay Ann Loft. She has been sharing her weight loss story and tips with our readers since 2011. She has a passion for healthy eating and helping others with their journey to a healthier lifestyle.

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